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dkulakov

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MY FIGHT
« on: October 08, 2017, 09:24:32 AM »
    Hi everyone!
    First of all let me introduce myself:
    • Started PMO at the age of 12, watched 4-5 times per week until the age of 17, now I'm 19
    • Had 2 failed sex experiences with girlfriend, then stopped watcing porn, but had MOed with my girlfriend frequently
    • My girl cheated on me, because I wasn't able to have sex, that's why I'm still a virgin
    • I was depressed and angry, breaking up with my girlfriend motivated me, and I could reach about 50 days clean no PMO, then I relapsed on "50 shades of grey"
    • After relapse I reached 109 days clean, I was happy, I thought that I'm not addicted anymore, but one day I watched  TV series "Spartacus", I saw a nude women on the screen and MOed. The next few days I started watching this series, I understood that it was bad idea, but couldn't do anything, I watched it for 5-6 hours every day, began masturbating and finally came back to porn
    • Now I know that I'm addicted, that porn and X-rated series are really bad for me, but the problem is that I relapse every weekend.
      I can easily reach 7 days clean, because during the week I'm very busy: I study in university, go to the gym, I have no time to think about PMO, but then I relapse on Sunday. It continues for the last 2 moths: I relapse every weekend on porn.
    • Today I relapsed again, and I decieded to write a journal, maybe it could help me and I find support here
    • My goal now is to reach 14 days hardmode. I'm going not to wactch any movies, videos, try to spend more time outside
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dkulakov

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Re: MY FIGHT
« Reply #1 on: October 08, 2017, 09:28:56 AM »
Well, today is my 1st day again. I'm sure that I easily reach 7 days, but I'm afraid to relapse again next Sunday

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Re: MY FIGHT
« Reply #2 on: October 10, 2017, 08:47:31 AM »
Come on dkulakov, you can do it. :)
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.

dkulakov

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Re: MY FIGHT
« Reply #3 on: October 12, 2017, 09:56:40 AM »
4 days are gone, everything is fine)

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Re: MY FIGHT
« Reply #4 on: October 25, 2017, 09:42:45 AM »
May be I am wrong, but why not let yourself 1 MO (with no porn, of course) in 10 days or 2 weeks? It may help not to feel bad physically. Just imagine soft vanilla stuff with a real girl you know. And never return to P, it ruins your life.

Держись, братан.

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Re: MY FIGHT
« Reply #5 on: October 27, 2017, 10:45:42 PM »
Today is my first day again
Doing real reboot i.e: reboot without relapsing.from 30 nov 2017

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Re: MY FIGHT
« Reply #6 on: November 27, 2017, 03:48:50 AM »
hi brother
I am with you,hold on,dont give up
today my first day rebooting
good luck!!!!!!