- Hi everyone!
First of all let me introduce myself:- Started PMO at the age of 12, watched 4-5 times per week until the age of 17, now I'm 19
- Had 2 failed sex experiences with girlfriend, then stopped watcing porn, but had MOed with my girlfriend frequently
- My girl cheated on me, because I wasn't able to have sex, that's why I'm still a virgin
- I was depressed and angry, breaking up with my girlfriend motivated me, and I could reach about 50 days clean no PMO, then I relapsed on "50 shades of grey"
- After relapse I reached 109 days clean, I was happy, I thought that I'm not addicted anymore, but one day I watched TV series "Spartacus", I saw a nude women on the screen and MOed. The next few days I started watching this series, I understood that it was bad idea, but couldn't do anything, I watched it for 5-6 hours every day, began masturbating and finally came back to porn
- Now I know that I'm addicted, that porn and X-rated series are really bad for me, but the problem is that I relapse every weekend.
I can easily reach 7 days clean, because during the week I'm very busy: I study in university, go to the gym, I have no time to think about PMO, but then I relapse on Sunday. It continues for the last 2 moths: I relapse every weekend on porn. - Today I relapsed again, and I decieded to write a journal, maybe it could help me and I find support here
- My goal now is to reach 14 days hardmode. I'm going not to wactch any movies, videos, try to spend more time outside