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Jack Can

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #225 on: October 07, 2017, 08:04:33 PM »
When you say the gym didn't go well, do you mean you didn't hit the numbers that you wanted to? Because I mean, at least you're going to the gym haha. Most people don't

Jake323

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« Reply #226 on: October 08, 2017, 12:24:38 PM »
When you say the gym didn't go well, do you mean you didn't hit the numbers that you wanted to? Because I mean, at least you're going to the gym haha. Most people don't

Yeah, I didn't hit the numbers I wanted to, I think it was because either because my technique wasn't optimal or my recovery wasn't very good.

10/7/17

Well, today was a very bad day, I ended up relapsing, after over 6 months of no PMO, I was very upset with myself. All is not lost, but it's frustrating because of how hard I worked. I was very stressed and worried about a lot of things.

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« Reply #227 on: October 08, 2017, 12:37:30 PM »
Maaaan, stay strong! I've been there and you have too. You know it's not a complete restart, just a minor setback, esp. if you were 6 months "clean". The key now is to stay positive, really understand why it happened, write it down, see how you could have escaped, and focus on all the positive things you've accomplished, list them, list the things you want to do to avoid relapsing again (the chaser effect might catch you and you must be prepared!).
We're here man, you're not alone, and it's okay.
PM me if needed! I know it's good to have someone watching when this happens, to keep you from falling again.
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Jake323

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« Reply #228 on: October 09, 2017, 09:43:00 AM »
Thanks, I find that journaling here helps, when I tried to stop PMO before, I wouldn't journal or jeep track of my progress, the first time I start doing it, I go almost 7 months without PMO, so I think I need to eliminate some things from my life in order to get to where I want to go, I started using social media again recently, which I don't think helped.

10/9/17

Had a strong urge to PMO again, but I deleted all of it off my computer and got ready for this next week instead.

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« Reply #229 on: October 10, 2017, 09:38:18 AM »
10/10/17

Yesterday was a pretty terrible day, I felt pretty depressed and anxious about the other day still.

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« Reply #230 on: October 11, 2017, 09:41:23 AM »
10/11/17

 Had a pretty good day yesterday, but I'm so tired.

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« Reply #231 on: October 11, 2017, 01:18:21 PM »
Hang in there man! And you're not alone :)



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« Reply #232 on: October 12, 2017, 12:43:22 PM »
Thanks brother, I appreciate it!

10/12/17

Surprisingly had a pretty good day yesterday despite how busy I was and how stressed I thought I would be, weird how it works like that how sometimes things don't end up how you thought, for better or worse.

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« Reply #233 on: October 13, 2017, 09:42:11 AM »
10/13/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, I'm glad it's Friday, time to finish up work and go home for the weekend.

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« Reply #234 on: October 14, 2017, 12:25:52 PM »
10/14/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, however, I'm really damn tured.

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« Reply #235 on: October 15, 2017, 01:17:09 PM »
10/15/17

Had a terrible day yesterday, nothing seemed to go right and I was crippled with anxiety and fear.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #236 on: October 15, 2017, 07:16:29 PM »
How long have you been going? How are doing so far? Need some experience from someone who had walked a long way. Please do tell

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« Reply #237 on: October 16, 2017, 05:21:10 AM »
Hang on! How have you been? We're here :)



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« Reply #238 on: October 16, 2017, 09:41:40 AM »
Thanks guys, I've been pretty good. I've been going at this for a year and eight months now, I've been taking it more seriously for the past year though.

10/16/17

Had kind of a boring/stressful day, but everything was alright I guess.

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« Reply #239 on: October 17, 2017, 04:21:55 PM »
10/17/17

Had a pretty bad day, I'm not sure what to do right now, kind of lost and hopeless.

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« Reply #240 on: October 17, 2017, 08:48:47 PM »
Excuse me for asking, hope I could learn something.

 How does recovery feel after you have gone for more than a year and a half?
Do you still have the urges to go to P or M? I mean of course there's always the hormonal urge but is it still hard to handle that you have to keep the caution and warning sign in front of you?

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« Reply #241 on: October 18, 2017, 12:48:26 AM »
I mean it's tough to say for sure because everyone is different, I imagine the longer you've been watching it, the stronger the urges will be, for me personally, I've been watching it since I wad 13 or 14 and I'm almost 22 now, although I didn't always watch it daily, it's taken me a while. After a year and a half, the urge is still there no doubt, but I guess my "mental muscles" and willpower I guess you could say seem stronger and I'm able to resist it easier and focus on more productive things. I haven't been perfect though, I just relapsed last week after almost 7 months of no PMO, so I guess you're never really in the clear, you just have to keep focusing on more important things instead of getting caught up in the cycle again.

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« Reply #242 on: October 18, 2017, 03:14:44 PM »
10/18/17

I started out having a TERRIBLE day, but it got better as the day went on and I wad able to calm my nerves and get things done.