FrenchWinner
Member
This is absolute BS. My subconscious is so used to fapping that I'll start jacking off in the middle of the night and I only realize it right before or during O. Even if I realize what I'm doing and stop before O, the M is so bad that it's basically a relapse anyway.
Some people say this doesn't count as a relapse, but it has all the negative effects of relapse, so it's GOT TO STOP. Seriously, I don't even fap consciously anymore. I would be 30-40 days clean if not for sleep fapping.
I made a thread about this problem a month or 2 ago, and some users were questioning whether the MO was really "subconcious" or "unintentional." IT IS. I spent the last couple dozen minutes searching "sleep fapping" and reading threads on it. It's a real thing, guys.
I'm awake right now at 1:30 AM because I woke up and started fapping unintentionally like a drugged-up f*** about an hour ago. I had removed my cup/underwear/bedsheets and started M with no conscious awareness of it. By the time I started to realize what I was doing- which is NOTHING compared to being awake in daytime and actually being able to think- I was too far gone, grabbed my phone and PMO' d without even the slightest feeling of guilt or resistance. The thing is, I went to sleep tonight actually thinking that "I'm so glad to be doing NoFap" and literally praying that this sleep-fapping wouldn't happen ever again- and believing that it wouldn't. AND IT HAPPENED TONIGHT. WTF!!!
Sorry if this is excessively ranty and unproductive. I'm just so incredibly frustrated right now I can't even describe it. I've never felt so hopeless or like giving up so much. After waking up "more" and realizing what I did, I started pounding the ground, hitting myself in the 'nads, and yelling "NO!!!!" over and over. I feel absolutely mind-controlled by my PMO-addicted subconscious and am desperate for anything that can make this stop.
Some people say this doesn't count as a relapse, but it has all the negative effects of relapse, so it's GOT TO STOP. Seriously, I don't even fap consciously anymore. I would be 30-40 days clean if not for sleep fapping.
I made a thread about this problem a month or 2 ago, and some users were questioning whether the MO was really "subconcious" or "unintentional." IT IS. I spent the last couple dozen minutes searching "sleep fapping" and reading threads on it. It's a real thing, guys.
I'm awake right now at 1:30 AM because I woke up and started fapping unintentionally like a drugged-up f*** about an hour ago. I had removed my cup/underwear/bedsheets and started M with no conscious awareness of it. By the time I started to realize what I was doing- which is NOTHING compared to being awake in daytime and actually being able to think- I was too far gone, grabbed my phone and PMO' d without even the slightest feeling of guilt or resistance. The thing is, I went to sleep tonight actually thinking that "I'm so glad to be doing NoFap" and literally praying that this sleep-fapping wouldn't happen ever again- and believing that it wouldn't. AND IT HAPPENED TONIGHT. WTF!!!
Sorry if this is excessively ranty and unproductive. I'm just so incredibly frustrated right now I can't even describe it. I've never felt so hopeless or like giving up so much. After waking up "more" and realizing what I did, I started pounding the ground, hitting myself in the 'nads, and yelling "NO!!!!" over and over. I feel absolutely mind-controlled by my PMO-addicted subconscious and am desperate for anything that can make this stop.