I've been battling a PMO addiction for the last 3-4 years, have made some tremendous progress, where I can go extended periods without any exposure. Very long streaks (50-100 days) of abstinence over this time frame, but occasionally prone to slips and relapses, which never last more than an hour or two (I used to be a daily binge user, and relapses would spiral me down into days and weeks of heavy use). When I now have sex, I am much better able to lose myself in the moment with my lady and enjoy the sensuality and experience of real sex, occasionally flashing to old porn scenes, but only in the sense that I imagine us doing the same moves as seen in those scenes (none of these are especially hardcore, more of the couples/sensual stuff). It has been hard to get to where I am, but I feel like I have really made large strides. Will have morning wood on occasion and no longer feel cravings or urges to binge on porn.
That being said, I still suffer from ED on many occasions, and have become heavily dependent on ED meds to assist me when having sex with my girl. There have been times where I havent used the meds, mainly in the morning, or after exercising, or if I take some vitamins and supplements instead (arginine, citrulline). But these episodes are rare, and the erections arent nearly as strong or as long in duration.
I havent told my girl about the ED, as she is very very sexual (wants it all the time) and I feel like she might be hurt if I mention my dependence on the medicines.
At this point I'm not sure what to do - I am thinking of doing an absolute abstinence program 100%, with nary a look or thought of porn, masturbation, or orgasm (outside of sex) to see if that helps improve my ED. I feel guilty and shameful that I cannot always get it up regularly and robustly without meds, but its just my situation right now.
Any thoughts or advice would be appreciated. I'm a mid-40 year old male btw.
That being said, I still suffer from ED on many occasions, and have become heavily dependent on ED meds to assist me when having sex with my girl. There have been times where I havent used the meds, mainly in the morning, or after exercising, or if I take some vitamins and supplements instead (arginine, citrulline). But these episodes are rare, and the erections arent nearly as strong or as long in duration.
I havent told my girl about the ED, as she is very very sexual (wants it all the time) and I feel like she might be hurt if I mention my dependence on the medicines.
At this point I'm not sure what to do - I am thinking of doing an absolute abstinence program 100%, with nary a look or thought of porn, masturbation, or orgasm (outside of sex) to see if that helps improve my ED. I feel guilty and shameful that I cannot always get it up regularly and robustly without meds, but its just my situation right now.
Any thoughts or advice would be appreciated. I'm a mid-40 year old male btw.