raven song
Active Member
Hi All,
My birthday is coming up this Monday and I feel a little anxious about it. We are trying to go away for the weekend and then we are taking the whole week off because of thanksgiving.
Last year - it was an AWFUL birthday. I felt sad that my husband was not sharing with me any sort of romantic/sentimental feeling about me. We have gone through the love languages book and my love language is strongly "words of affirmation". I have LOVED it in the past when he would sing to me, write me a meaningful card, etc. I love that more than gifts.
I'm sure this birthday will be better. We haven't had much heated conflict in about 2 months. He's been listening to me so much better since he learned about "double messages" that REALLY helps! And now he is going to a PA therapist - so hopefully that will help me feel better too.
During our drive, I think I will ask him if we can listen to Brene Brown together - "Men, Women, and Worthiness: The Experience of Shame and the Power of Being Enough". My therapist recommended it. It might help us to learn and connect while we are on vacation. And it isn't PA focused material so it shouldn't trigger him I would think. This time off, I'm going to read Brene Browns "Rising Strong" there is supposed to be really good info in there about boundaries.
I'm basically proactively making a self-care plan to help me in case I feel super duper sad on my birthday and I might not feel that he finds me special. I'm hoping that as he recovers, he will be sharing his positive feelings about me more and more. Right now, it doesn't feel like he is "in love" with me, and that can hurt as badly as him using porn. I've been coping with this for the last year, but I'm concerned it will be worse on my bday.
Any advice on handling special occasions like this?
My birthday is coming up this Monday and I feel a little anxious about it. We are trying to go away for the weekend and then we are taking the whole week off because of thanksgiving.
Last year - it was an AWFUL birthday. I felt sad that my husband was not sharing with me any sort of romantic/sentimental feeling about me. We have gone through the love languages book and my love language is strongly "words of affirmation". I have LOVED it in the past when he would sing to me, write me a meaningful card, etc. I love that more than gifts.
I'm sure this birthday will be better. We haven't had much heated conflict in about 2 months. He's been listening to me so much better since he learned about "double messages" that REALLY helps! And now he is going to a PA therapist - so hopefully that will help me feel better too.
During our drive, I think I will ask him if we can listen to Brene Brown together - "Men, Women, and Worthiness: The Experience of Shame and the Power of Being Enough". My therapist recommended it. It might help us to learn and connect while we are on vacation. And it isn't PA focused material so it shouldn't trigger him I would think. This time off, I'm going to read Brene Browns "Rising Strong" there is supposed to be really good info in there about boundaries.
I'm basically proactively making a self-care plan to help me in case I feel super duper sad on my birthday and I might not feel that he finds me special. I'm hoping that as he recovers, he will be sharing his positive feelings about me more and more. Right now, it doesn't feel like he is "in love" with me, and that can hurt as badly as him using porn. I've been coping with this for the last year, but I'm concerned it will be worse on my bday.
Any advice on handling special occasions like this?