Thank you, Orbiter, however ironic... because this weekend I failed BIG TIME on multiple fronts.I was going out last night and told myself to not drink any alcohol, because I would take drugs. Friends come over, first thing I do is open a can of beer for myself. Don't ask me why. But this started a cascade of stupid choices. Next thing, I accompany people on the balcony to have a smoke. How easily I was flipped there... One minute I'm totally motivated and happy to have quit smoking, next minute I'm lighting one. So I ended up smoking several cigarettes last night.We go to the party, I take a responsible dose of amphetamine. Then, 15 fucking minutes before leaving, I feel down because the drugs have worn off, and I redose... Why the fuck? It was perfect... effects worn off, go home, go to bed, wake up, everything fine. Now I stayed up the entire night because I was too wired, obviously.Now taking psychostimulants and skipping a night ALWAYS meant hypersexuality for me, and last night was no different. I went on an edging session that literally took hours, partly because I couldn't get it up consistently because of the intoxication. I orgasmed in the shower, late the next morning.Then when waking up from a nap during the day, there's this hypersexual vibe again. I'm like, I fucked up so badly this weekend, no saving this, what the hell. Tomorrow's a new week, but today's already fucked. So I jacked off to porn substitutes. First facebook pics, then a JOI video, which is technically porn, even if not actual sex. At least I had to go on a porn tube site to watch it.I could give myself the benefit of the doubt and not reset my counters. But screw these counters, they're already... confounded. Tainted. Tomorrow I will start using a new, single counter. No PMO. Meaning no porn, masturbation, or self-induced orgasm, concerted or not.I need to remind myself of what I wrote down earlier. The Ten Commandments. First 3 read no smoking, no masturbation, responsible drug use. I failed big time on these. I need to be aware of this "cascade" of events... My willpower is strong but fragile. Take some damage here, the whole thing is bound to disintegrate. This really is the perfect example of the slippery slope. I knew I had it coming, just read my recent posts here. I was aware of it but somehow I couldn't stop it. Semi-allowing myself to masturbate once a week, led to more masturbation this week, and eventually to, well... porn. Not the worst transgression but it was porn.Thanks for reading. Wish me luck. Here's to a fresh new start tomorrow. I have not failed, because I did not give up. My progress has been damaged, but has not been erased. With a little patience and determination, I'll be back to where I was and will progress further from there on.