I'm an adult now. It's time reboot before I turn 19

Hello everyone. I've been struggling with porn since I stumbled upon it when I was 12 years old. It's time for me to stop for good. I'm a legal adult (18) now and still, I'm addicted. I need to stop this before it takes away my life. There are too many people depending on me for this insidiously sexist and racist industry to derail my ambition and dreams. To win, I want to keep myself accountable to all of you. So I'm going to start a daily log. Any encouragement and insight is appreciated.
Thanks and best of luck with your journeys

Day 1:
Success! No porn today. However, a few youtube music videos got me triggered, and if I had not been around other people when I was watching them, I might have succumbed to temptation. I need to avoid accessing the internet when I'm alone. I've set up one of my friends as my accountability partner. I've never had opened up to anyone before. My honesty was liberating in a way I've never experienced before and now I feel like I have a new purpose to stick out this reboot. Hopefully, we can inspire each other to press on with the reboot through the hard times.
That's all for today,
Peace fam

Day 2:
Hello everyone. Today was a good day packed with lots of exercise, rehearsals, and singing. I didn't have any real urges because I was so busy. No porn was viewed! Success for today.
Peace for now!

I wish I stumbled upon this site this early Good luck, you're doing great!

Wabba

Day 3:
Greetings,
Thanks Wabba for the encouragement. I wish you the best as well!
Today was another easy day. I was outside enjoying beautiful weather and hanging with friends. No urges, probably because I kept myself pre-occupied with others. I suspect the real challenge to my commitment will come when I'm alone and having to do a lot of school work. To circumvent this vulnerable state, I'm going to try to be in close proximity with at least one other person everywhere I go. Holding myself accountable to my friend everyday is also really motivating me to stick to this. We've established a rule that we'll text each other everyday just to check in.
Peace!
Akash

Day 4:
Success for now. No PMO today. Although I did get several urges while at the library... I would focus in on an attractive person and I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about her and actually do my work.

Day 5:
The urges are getting stronger but I'm responding with more exercise and texting my accountability partner. I'm definitely struggling with withdrawal symptoms now. Any suggestions for powering through this stage?

Day 6:
Hello everyone!
Sorry for the late reply, I had a busy day yesterday. No porn today, urges are continuing to get stronger though. I attended my first MAVRIC (Men's Allied Voices for a Respectful and Inclusive Community) meeting at college today! We talked about pornography's personal effect on us all. The process of sharing vulnerable moments with each other was rejuvenating and validating. I think our mutual admissions taught us that there isn't something wrong with us. There's something wrong with Porn. And it's our job to reject that industry which dehumanizes both men and women, both actor and viewer! I'm hoping that the MAVRIC community will be another bridge of accountability for me to overcome my own addiction to PMO.
That's all for now, peace!

Day 7
Hello Everyone!
Thanks for all the support so far. I'm making my no PMO streak so far. And I'm getting a lot of natural highs as a result. I feel great and attentive. I'm dreading this weekend though when I'm alone and vulnerable. I gotta make sure I stay in sight of other people as much as I can't. I've come too far to slip up now.
Peace!

Day 8
Success for today. My day was packed with rehearsals and auditions so I had no time really to think of masturbating. Tomorrow though I expect  a challenge from urges because I basically have the whole day free to study and write a paper. I need to keep myself accountable at the library.
That's all for now!

Day 9
I made it through today with no PMO. The internet is getting more and more tempting but I know I gotta manage and avoid those triggers.
Stay strong everyone!

Day 8 and 9:
Successful days. Been really busy with schoolwork and been in the midst of a lot of people. My NO PMO accountability partner and I have had lengthy chats about edging. I got really close to going there last night.

Day 10 and 11:
Hey everyone!
This reboot experience is incredible right now. I'm getting so much more energy without PMO. And I'm seriously challenging the traditional, patriarchal ways I've objectified women. However, urges are getting stronger still and edging is becoming more and more of a temptation. I got to protect myself from this rationalized, quasi-PMO that will inevitably make me relapse. The ultimate goal is to rewire my brain's reaction to PMO from sexual pleasure to displeasure. I can't do that when I'm still attached to PMO -- whether that be through P without M or M without P and/or O.

That's all for now! Best of luck!

Day 12, 13, 14:
Successful days. Working with my accountability partner is really motivating me. I've also made it a rule to start doing 15 -30 pushups everytime I get an urge in private. This rule is working wonders. It's really helping me with my increasing urge to edge. I want to have sex so bad right now. Not porn-style, rather I'm craving an intimate, emotional and sensual experience that lasts and pleases both parties. I think the re-wiring of my brain is starting to work.

Days 14-20:
This journey has been incredible so far with lots of challenges. I've reduced my frequency of posting so that I'm not constantly reminded about fapping. No PMO has really gotten my mind focused on bigger things, on becoming a better human. I'm coming to this site only in emergencies when I get urges and when I have a new insight I really want to share.
Peace for now!

Day 32:
Hello everyone!
I'm checking in today. I've made it past a month with no porn or orgasm. However, in the last week because of a lot of stress from papers and finals, I edged twice pretty late at night. Should I reset my score on masturbation? Or should I keep my streak, realize edging will lead me eventually into a full-out relapse, and buckle down to stop edging with the pressure of this higher number? In terms of stopping edging, I need to be much more serious about my time at night. Instead of surfing facebook or youtube where I'm bound to find triggers, I need to be sleeping!
One of the big impacts of no PMO for me in the last month has been the amount of time I've started exercising every day and watching what food I intake. Before no PMO, I'd probably do an occasional set of 10 pull-ups and eat whatever the hell I wanted. Now I'm much more conscious about the food and exercise my body needs everyday. I've started working out everyday and eating lean and clean foods.
However, sleep hasn't been a top priority during my college experience so far. No PMO is making me realize how important sleep is, not just to being healthy in general but also in making sure that I do not make myself more susceptible to triggers when it's late at night and I'm really tired and vulnerable.
That's all for now,
PEACE!

I wouldn't reset, just stop the edging. It's, as you say, going to eventually develop into a relapse probably. I forced myself to say a thing to myself when I started touching myself badly (like in the morning, in the shower, just starting...), the thing was "THIS LED TO A RELAPSE LAST TIME, IT'S STUPID, I'M DESTROYING MY PROGRESS" and it became a habit. If I ever even touch myself outside peeing/cleaning, the thought pops into my head and I stop.

Maybe you can try to do the similar thing.

And for the night activity, leave the phone alone. Read or watch a movie (non-triggering) or listen to a podcast or an audiobook. I'd recommend books, because they do not leave your hands free, you know why

Tell me how did it go!

Wabba

goog luck!!!

Day
Thank you Wabbajack for the insights and Captain America for the encouragement!
I edged again pretty bad last night so now I'm gonna seriously start applying what y'all said. I'm thinking of just training myself to imagine the hangover feeling of relapse every time I get the urge. Like asking myself out loud every time: "You really want relapse depression?" I think I also need to make clear how edging can be even worse that relapsing because it doesn't rewire your brain to actual human interaction. It just preserves your porn fantasies.
I'll stay in touch,
Kinlor