I've been hanging out with this girl for about a month and I'm starting to show signs of PIED and she starting to notice. She's really the main reason I'm buckling down and trying to fix this. Before I go any further about my current situation, I'll give a brief history about my relationship with porn and my penis. I grew up in a religious house hold and didn't start viewing porn until I was about 13 or 14. I started masturbating around 9 or 10 though. At first porn wasn't about the visual aspect to me. I would play porn for the audio and sub in my own fantasies. After my mom got divorced and I got my own electronics I began viewing a couple times a week. I went through phases of viewing everyday, to once a week, to going months without it and i continued this cycle all through high school. I college I viewed porn about 3 times a week and thats when normal porn stopped peaking my interest. Now, on that point, All porn still gets me off but it became preference. Now my relationship with my penis is a little different. Around college I became obsessed with Penis exercises (PE) in an effort to my my Penis bigger (like a porn star). According to all the studies I'm barely average (like 1/16 above minimum, which in the U.S. is between 5-6.5). It wrecked my self esteem. I still do PE, but focus on the health benefit as opposed to growing it. back to the present, In the month I've been fooling around with her I've lost my morning wood (I usually masturbate in the morning) and rely on her almost entirely for a below average erection. This lead to me doing an experiment. I timed myself masturbating. With porn it took no more then 30 second; without porn but visualizing her and the things we've done about 8 minutes; without porn and focusing on sensation alone, doesn't even work. I can get a partial erection thats only good enough to grip but not really masturbate. Since I've gone without porn for a month I've noticed and increase in wanting to go out and be social while simultaneously having anxiety when in those situations (like events or bars, these places didn't bother me before). I plan on giving a weekly update to keep me honest. I'll also try to put all this into a semi-measurable system because one thing I've learned is seeing the trends is the easiest way to make progress.