First off, looking for an accountability partner.
Who am I...
Name : Dan
Age: 27
General Life: Successful good standing graduated collegiate athlete, full-time professional, single man, and do not have kids yet (thankfully). Triathlete, rock climber, acquiring my master's degree, and enjoying the social environment around Kansas City when I can, but typically stick to myself (correlation to PIED I hear...).
Porn life: I have been into porn and ritually used it since I was 12. Like most it started with basic magazines and aggressively escalated when I was in college cause of the "tube stream style." Around the age of 24 I had an episode with my past girlfriend that made me question "WTF is going on with me, this isn't right at my age." We had a normal sex life, but there were signs of pre-PIED that I was noticing, but unaware why it was happening. Some of those were a consistent functional-soft erection, loss of morning wood, delayed ejaculations (if not ever during intercourse), numbing touch sensation, and even a constant need for motion (she couldn't ride, take lead, or do anything without it going soft/limp). Of course I had a strong daily porn ritual before bed to get to sleep easier or utilized it when I was depressed or down.
Present day porn/sex life: Reason that pushed me here and to take charge of this once and for all. Recently have had numerous encounters that were successful, but they were one time goes. I noticed I was seeing the same signs as a past girlfriend though even on first time encounters with new individuals. I became habituated to having a partial hard-on during intercourse and that still didn't seem right with me, but I blew it off as whiskey-dick, stress, and eventually I orgasm. She was happy, I was happy, and we went of to our own ways (So why didn't she come back for more might ask... good questions, ha). My recent friend who we have had multiple encounters with all went great, but I would not PMO for a week and she would be over to help me with that release and I had no issues the first go. The second time go around was 50/50 if I would orgasm. I never understood what was going on, but the last two encounters have ended in an utter fail because I just couldn't even get excited or up the first time. Some I suspect to performance stress (raising the sexual experience bar each encounter). Other encounters I again recognized the same prior signs, but waiting a week without PMO did help tremendously to become erect.
So here I am... I have already in a way started my daily NoFAP and have stayed away from porn as much as possible. I struggle with running by sites with risque pictures and such, but it never triggers me to "let one go" when I desire.
Around last year I came across this site and questioned whether this was a true ED or a PIED, because I was having sex with partners, but it was never a solid stiff pole like I wanted it to be. The truth is, I can still get hard to porn anytime. Things definitely don't feel like they used to, because even porn itself became dull and it did escalate me to more daring genres, but nothing that made me question myself. I honestly stay away from porn now knowing its toxicity but relapsing is an extreme weakness. I may not like porn anymore, but there are those urges as days turn into weeks; the struggle to get over that flatline stage or just habitual urge.
Day counter: 6+
Estimate recovery time: Who knows, but guessing this could be a long ride after reading men similar to me.
Appreciate the support. Apologize if I came across bragging in anyway, but this is my story and I want someone who will support me to understand.
Much love to everyone in your own journeys and thanks for taking the time to read this and join me.
Who am I...
Name : Dan
Age: 27
General Life: Successful good standing graduated collegiate athlete, full-time professional, single man, and do not have kids yet (thankfully). Triathlete, rock climber, acquiring my master's degree, and enjoying the social environment around Kansas City when I can, but typically stick to myself (correlation to PIED I hear...).
Porn life: I have been into porn and ritually used it since I was 12. Like most it started with basic magazines and aggressively escalated when I was in college cause of the "tube stream style." Around the age of 24 I had an episode with my past girlfriend that made me question "WTF is going on with me, this isn't right at my age." We had a normal sex life, but there were signs of pre-PIED that I was noticing, but unaware why it was happening. Some of those were a consistent functional-soft erection, loss of morning wood, delayed ejaculations (if not ever during intercourse), numbing touch sensation, and even a constant need for motion (she couldn't ride, take lead, or do anything without it going soft/limp). Of course I had a strong daily porn ritual before bed to get to sleep easier or utilized it when I was depressed or down.
Present day porn/sex life: Reason that pushed me here and to take charge of this once and for all. Recently have had numerous encounters that were successful, but they were one time goes. I noticed I was seeing the same signs as a past girlfriend though even on first time encounters with new individuals. I became habituated to having a partial hard-on during intercourse and that still didn't seem right with me, but I blew it off as whiskey-dick, stress, and eventually I orgasm. She was happy, I was happy, and we went of to our own ways (So why didn't she come back for more might ask... good questions, ha). My recent friend who we have had multiple encounters with all went great, but I would not PMO for a week and she would be over to help me with that release and I had no issues the first go. The second time go around was 50/50 if I would orgasm. I never understood what was going on, but the last two encounters have ended in an utter fail because I just couldn't even get excited or up the first time. Some I suspect to performance stress (raising the sexual experience bar each encounter). Other encounters I again recognized the same prior signs, but waiting a week without PMO did help tremendously to become erect.
So here I am... I have already in a way started my daily NoFAP and have stayed away from porn as much as possible. I struggle with running by sites with risque pictures and such, but it never triggers me to "let one go" when I desire.
Around last year I came across this site and questioned whether this was a true ED or a PIED, because I was having sex with partners, but it was never a solid stiff pole like I wanted it to be. The truth is, I can still get hard to porn anytime. Things definitely don't feel like they used to, because even porn itself became dull and it did escalate me to more daring genres, but nothing that made me question myself. I honestly stay away from porn now knowing its toxicity but relapsing is an extreme weakness. I may not like porn anymore, but there are those urges as days turn into weeks; the struggle to get over that flatline stage or just habitual urge.
Day counter: 6+
Estimate recovery time: Who knows, but guessing this could be a long ride after reading men similar to me.
Appreciate the support. Apologize if I came across bragging in anyway, but this is my story and I want someone who will support me to understand.
Much love to everyone in your own journeys and thanks for taking the time to read this and join me.