50 Days of NoFap!

Tmrw marks my 50th day of NoFap!

I'm a 19 year old college freshman. Started masturbating at 12 years old, started using porn around 14. Successful w/ girls in HS, had many chances with naked girls in my bedroom between junior and senior year, couldn't keep my dick up to have full intercourse. Took forever to orgasm from oral sex. Dealt with depression.

While I was watching porn almost every night, and organisming to it I was:
-Very good at seducing girls and getting them in my bed
-Extremely charismatic, could make friends with everyone
-Had a "Idgaf" attitude, but not in a bad way
-Was gaining weight, overeating and not working out
-Was rude to people that cared for me
-Couldn't hold a strong, hard erection for more than 45 seconds

When I started NoFap, I dealt with:
-Deep Depression
-Flatline, no erections even with sensation (edging)
-Extreme Laziness, fucked up my grades and didn't care
-Disgust, couldn't look myself in the mirror
-Approach anxiety, couldn't talk to or look anyone in the eyes, afraid of conversation
-Tired all the time

I haven't watched any porn, masturbated, or busted a nut for 50 days so far and some of my observations include.
-Morning wood here and there on some mornings
-3 Wet Dreams in the last 50 days
-A fuller/stronger dick, not as dead, gets hard with light stroking, feels like i'm about to cum in like 10 seconds.
-Got extremely hard after seeing a girls nipple on Iphone FaceTime
-More confidence in my abilities to abstain from something harmful/stick to a routine(Committing to working out/Staying away from junk food. Doing HW etc)
-More willing to have real relationships with not only girls, but people in general
-Getting my personality back
-Kicking ass in the Gym, and loving my body

I don't know when I can start having sex again, or how to test how much progress I made, but I'm staying far away from the porn for sure!

Keep it up, you'll be healed before you know it.

It sounds like you're making a lot of progress! Hopefully your reboot will be short, like 90 days short. Give it more time, and when you do start to have sex, take it slow in the beginning and listen to your body.

Does anyone know the difference between Rebooting and Rewiring??

Dont worry so much! Everyone takes a different time frame to reboot. Youve got some good signs so far, promising stuff so dont give up!

50 days?!  You're my hero for the day.  Nice work.  I hope you keep it up. 

You'd be surprised how hard it is not to relapse by the time you're in that 50 day range. I think about how good it would feel to watch some porn lol

nofappermane said:

Does anyone know the difference between Rebooting and Rewiring??

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Re-wiring is part of the rebooting process.  You re-wire your brain to get excited and fire dopamine at normal activities with girls (holding hands, kissing,rubbing legs, smell, smile, hair, admiring a girls looks, etc).  You re-wire your brain to look at women as human beings and that porn and fantasy is degrading to women and has no place in your mind.  I used to check out a girls rack, face, ass and then immediately think about how she'd be in bed, look naked, etc.  That's porn goggles and has no place in your brain activity. 

This is an important step and if you meet a nice girl you might want to take it slow and focus intently on the little things with her.  It will help you a lot and she'll probably love it.  I get boners from rubbing my wife's back or thinking about how pretty she is.  60 days ago I couldn't keep an erection w/oral or appreciate her body like I can now.  Cheers man, it sounds like you're on a great path. 

Does getting a blowjob count as a relapse? I couldn't have full out sex with a girl I met up with today, but she gave me a blowjob and I orgasm-ed. Do I have to start from 90 days all over again?

From what I've been reading, that sounds like a good thing, actually. I mean, not as good as an orgasm from intercourse, but still. There's a risk of flatlining if you orgasm before fully recovering, or that it might set you back in your process. However, of it was with a real flesh and blood girl, I dont think that's any reason at all to reset the counter. As far as I know, interactions with girls are encouraged because it's natural. I think you should be proud of yourself and keep it up!

I really really regret that blowjob on 4/28.

I've gone into a flatline and my dick is shriveled and shrimp-like.

I haven't masturbated or orgasm-ed, but I've found myself getting back into old habits like visiting the porn sites on my phone and watching sexy videos on youtube. The only thing keeping me going is the chart in my room that shows me 64 days of NoFap.

It's getting so hard, especially b/c it feels I started over again. Such a frustrating process...all I want is to have regular hormones again.  :'(

Watching porn is negative for your reboot. You should stop it completely if you want to recover.

nofappermane said:

I really really regret that blowjob on 4/28.

I've gone into a flatline and my dick is shriveled and shrimp-like.

I haven't masturbated or orgasm-ed, but I've found myself getting back into old habits like visiting the porn sites on my phone and watching sexy videos on youtube. The only thing keeping me going is the chart in my room that shows me 64 days of NoFap.

It's getting so hard, especially b/c it feels I started over again. Such a frustrating process...all I want is to have regular hormones again.  :'(

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Dealing with flatline is terrible.. But man think about that... how many days you went without O'ing? 50???

That means you made 50 steps forward and 1 backward for that O.

I dont know about the porn videos.. but dont give up man...!!!!! you made really nice progress.

Sorry to say that I Orgasmed to Porn last night  :'(

Surprisingly, I'm not completely crushed by it because I felt like my run-In with the orgasm on the 28th was the day I should've started my journey over again.

I will start again from 90 Days and count down. This first run showed me how far I can go, and I know the adjustments I can make for this next go-round.

Good luck to all you boys out there.