Booter2015
Member
Hi All,
Just thought I'd post to get some support really. I've been porn free, with no relapse for 2 years now - I'm 41 years old and like everyone here suffered with porn addiction through out my adult life.
The first reboot I went under was before I was aware of this forum and community - I basically had porn addiction so bad that in the end once the severity of the physical symptoms kicked in I lost interest in porn which made me withdraw naturally. It took 3 months for my sex drive to return and for me to physically return to normal.
This first time I just put it down to depression and not to porn use. So when it struck again back in October 2014, I was surprised because I wasn't unhappy in my life, I started my research, found this place and immediately took steps to recover. Fully realising that the reason I was in this position was completely of my own doing.
Here we are, just over two years now into my reboot - so the positives are:
1) Since I quit two years ago, I have not looked back at all - I have not relapsed once.
2) My morning wood returned a couple of months ago.
3) I am capable of full sex,
The negatives are
1) I still have no sex drive, I don't desire porn or the real thing.
2) Body's reactions are still slower than I'd like to arousal when my partner stimulates me.
During my reboot, I didn't masturbate (hard mode) and found on the odd occasion I did orgasm with my partner, I slumped hugely back into the flat line that was like being emotionally gutted from the inside out.
This slumping seems to have gone away now, but I still have no sexual desire - I love my partner more than anyone I have ever loved before and I just wish that the one thing that makes me feel like a man would return. I just don't feel human, without my sex drive.
I keep telling myself that I am getting better, but the rate of my recovery (2 years) has been in pigeon steps. It's truly awful.
Thanks All
Just thought I'd post to get some support really. I've been porn free, with no relapse for 2 years now - I'm 41 years old and like everyone here suffered with porn addiction through out my adult life.
The first reboot I went under was before I was aware of this forum and community - I basically had porn addiction so bad that in the end once the severity of the physical symptoms kicked in I lost interest in porn which made me withdraw naturally. It took 3 months for my sex drive to return and for me to physically return to normal.
This first time I just put it down to depression and not to porn use. So when it struck again back in October 2014, I was surprised because I wasn't unhappy in my life, I started my research, found this place and immediately took steps to recover. Fully realising that the reason I was in this position was completely of my own doing.
Here we are, just over two years now into my reboot - so the positives are:
1) Since I quit two years ago, I have not looked back at all - I have not relapsed once.
2) My morning wood returned a couple of months ago.
3) I am capable of full sex,
The negatives are
1) I still have no sex drive, I don't desire porn or the real thing.
2) Body's reactions are still slower than I'd like to arousal when my partner stimulates me.
During my reboot, I didn't masturbate (hard mode) and found on the odd occasion I did orgasm with my partner, I slumped hugely back into the flat line that was like being emotionally gutted from the inside out.
This slumping seems to have gone away now, but I still have no sexual desire - I love my partner more than anyone I have ever loved before and I just wish that the one thing that makes me feel like a man would return. I just don't feel human, without my sex drive.
I keep telling myself that I am getting better, but the rate of my recovery (2 years) has been in pigeon steps. It's truly awful.
Thanks All