Here I go to again;

Nobby

Member
Age, 66 and new to this his site but not at all new to porn addiction recovery. In the past I have achieved a period of 2 years of "sobriety / abstinence, then relapsed after what I still consider to be valid reasons. Not that it matters. Here I am again, having gotten into trouble with porn. My return to recovery is essential or certainly lose my relationship with my wife. It will simplydissolve. I know how it's done, I know that recovery is there for me, all I have to do is the work. I am fed up with porn and what it has done to me! I want out!!!
I believe that this is my 15th day of abstinence and I'll count from this day forward. Thank you all so much for being here!!
 

camus

Active Member
Welcome to the site Nobby. I hope you get the help you need here. And well done for not giving in and coming back after relapsing.
 

harry

Active Member
Hey Nobby,

Welcome to the forum. It's a great place for support and recovery.

I've got almost 7 years of sobriety (drugs and alcohol) in AA, and using the tools from that program has really helped me with this journey. It's funny, in the end, I just substituted one addiction for another. Life of an addict. Now, if I could only kick sugar...

Anyway, I see this forum as a virtual meeting with cross talk. I come here periodically throughout the day and post often.

Stay strong!
 

Nobby

Member
I have shortened up this journal after realizing that my posts were entirely too verbose. I'll try to keep them shorter in the future. I've tried to edit my "Tracker to more accurately display the number of days I've beenPMO free but without sun. This is actually day 17 for me. I'm happy to report that I to through this day without temptation. I see that as a win, (and very encouraging!
Onwards and upwards!
 

Robert2.0

Member
Nobby,

As a soon to be 66 year old addict let me welcome you to this site. I know you will find friendship and help here. I know you will find the members here always willing to share and offer guidance. Welcome.

We can do this!
 

Nobby

Member
Thanks Robert for the welcome!

I think this is day 19 for me. Yesterday was an especially good day. My wife and I got along better than we have been for at least 6 months. I find that very encouraging. I had one powerful urge but I don't know what triggered that. i found myself saying to myself, "Screw this!, why bother, it's just the same old crap!" A most unusual happening for me, and one that caused the urge to vaporize. Again, most encouraging. Onward and Upwards!
 

bob

Respected Member
Hey No.

i just can't call you nobody. 8) Welcome to RN. Feels good to not be the only person here who is at the "upper limit" of this thing called life. So glad you are here.

Peace
 

Nobby

Member
Thanks, Bob. Actually it's Nobby, a nick I was awarded while in the service. All personnel with my last name were /are called "Nobby .
 

bob

Respected Member
Duh, and me showing my dyslexia. I read and I don't even see.  I use to have a joke i would tell on myself...

What DAM stand for. The answer?

Mothers Against Dyslexia.

 

Polar

Member
bob said:
Hey No.

i just can't call you nobody. 8) Welcome to RN. Feels good to not be the only person here who is at the "upper limit" of this thing called life. So glad you are here.

Peace

Maybe it's the mood we're in?  When life is good and we're strong, it's easier to dismiss the call for dope (dopamine).  When we're down, we don't really try that hard?
 

Nobby

Member
It's tense times here at our house. On a daily basis I fear that my wife will tell me that she just "can't do this anymore." And leave me. This causes me significant stress and worry but I've just now remembered that most of the time, when I feel that the worst is going to happen, it almost never does. I don't find my fear triggering at all, for which I am grateful. I had some time alone yesterday, usually a triggering situation but when wife got home I realized that in her absence I hadn't felt triggered at all, which was (and is) a terrific sign of progress for me. Onward and Upward!
 

Nobby

Member
I'm looking for a valid link to the ebook by Gary Wilson it having no success at all. Anyone have any suggestions?
 

Nobby

Member
Actually, no. I'm looking for an ebook called " Wack". The author is B E Church. On Reboot Nation I found an offer for a free copy of it, but ran into dead links along the way. In the meantime I'm about halfway through The Porn Trap.
 

Nobby

Member
Day 23 by my reckoning. It's been a few days since I last posted, for no particular reason. Th days haven't b n without temptation but none so bad as to bring me down. Relationship with my wife has been up and down. My Acquired Brain Injury is responsible for in a large portion / percentage of that, makes me pretty nuts on some days, resulting in unbearable frustration for her. Okay, the responsibility is mine, not the brain injury. But just the same, that issue does throw in a bunch of additional challenges and factors to be dealt with. Later today I'll behome alone for awhile and that situation is usually triggering for me. I'd get in touch with a friend to hang out with but I'd need a friend in order to make that happen  :)plodding th ough " Is he Porn Trap as I find it starting to drag (just as it did content/uploads/2016/03/Wack_-Addicted-to-Internet-Porn-Noah-B.E.-Church.pdf). Among other things, it contains:
When I read it before. But I'll plough through it, regardless. Then I'll try this "Wank" book to see if I can learn anything new and useful. All I he education / information I can gather on recovery from porn addiction helps! All the tools I find to use make the battle slightly easier. For now, Onward and upward!
 

bob

Respected Member
This is a good read as well.

Breaking the Cycle: Free Yourself from Sex Addiction, Porn Obsession and Shame.
 
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