I KNOW I CAN REBOOT

I'm 20 years old and from Brazil. I'll tell you guys about my porn addiction and PIED. Lets go...

I starded MO when I was 14 years old and quickly it becomes PMO. So it has been 6 years that I PMO daily. In the beggining P was "regular" or "light" and then it becomes more specific and weird...My first sexual experience with a girl happened when I was 16 years old and since then I discovered that I have PIED. I had some other experiences but ALL of them failed, I feel like I just can't have sex. I tried reboot a few times and failed as well but this time I'm focous.

Day 4 - until today it has been easy stay away from PM, but I feel hopeless

Day 5 - the same yet. But today I remember my recess will over next month and I'll return to the college, so that makes me very anxious and I felt my brain BEGGING for PMO. It was not cool man :/

Day 6 - Last night a girl friend send me a nude, but I didn't relapse and an other girl friend told me she had sex with a virgin friend of mine (they are girlfriend and boyfriend). She said the sex was amazing and it let me f***ing sad because he can have sex normally while I have serious problems about that. I'm feeling like a weirdo looser, but I won't give up. I realized that I don't have triggers, so it is good

What's up, man?

This is my 1st day.

Hey man, what's up?

Feeling hopeless sucks. But, like any feeling, it will go away. And a different feeling will come. What helped me personally was to observe my feelings and thoughts as they went and try to keep my mind on the long-term.

You can do it man, keep up!

Casta?o said:

Hey man, what's up?

Feeling hopeless sucks. But, like any feeling, it will go away. And a different feeling will come. What helped me personally was to observe my feelings and thoughts as they went and try to keep my mind on the long-term.

You can do it man, keep up!

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Thank you so much man! I will try do it as well. Its good to know there is people that understand it. We can, thanks again

Itsovernow said:

What's up, man?

This is my 1st day.

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Hey you! Have a great reboot my friend, stay strong. We all are together on that

Keep up the good work, man! I know about how porn makes a guy feel like a loser. It makes you think that PMO is what makes you you, but that's a lie. There's so much more to you than your addiction. Realizing that this addiction is just one thing that I do (and am trying to quit) and not who I am has been really helpful. I still feel like a loser sometimes, but I just remind myself that that isn't true.

BlueHeronFan said:

Keep up the good work, man! I know about how porn makes a guy feel like a loser. It makes you think that PMO is what makes you you, but that's a lie. There's so much more to you than your addiction. Realizing that this addiction is just one thing that I do (and am trying to quit) and not who I am has been really helpful. I still feel like a loser sometimes, but I just remind myself that that isn't true.

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Porn made me feel like a loser because I didn't fuck 100 girls a year, like in porn movies, and that I couldn't get a girl and talk her into fucking me in 2 minutes. It's fucking sick and I'm tired of it.

BlueHeronFan said:

Keep up the good work, man! I know about how porn makes a guy feel like a loser. It makes you think that PMO is what makes you you, but that's a lie. There's so much more to you than your addiction. Realizing that this addiction is just one thing that I do (and am trying to quit) and not who I am has been really helpful. I still feel like a loser sometimes, but I just remind myself that that isn't true.

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Thanks man

Day 7 - I had a wet dream today and I think I got an erection, but I woke up and all was normal. I am losing my interest for porn and today I unfollowed a lot of girls that post photos wearing bikinis on instagram stories. I'm avoiding all kind of porn as much as I can.

Decaptare said:

Day 7 - I had a wet dream today and I felt I got an erection, but I woke up and all was normal. I am loosing my interesting for porn and today I unfollowed a lot of girls that post photos wearing bikinis on instagram stories. I'm avoind all kind of porn as much as I can.

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Finally. Stay away from all this bullshit social media if you don't want to relapse.

Day 8 - I dreamed about my "darkest" porn fantasize, it was really weird. I remember get hard a lot in the dream, but I realized that looked like porn so I stopped all that shit. Anybody had a dream like that once?

I saw some pictures on snapchat and I'm feeling so bad, I don't know if it is a relapse.

Decaptare said:

Day 8 - I dreamed about my "darkest" porn fantasize, it was really weird. I remember get hard a lot in the dream, but I realized that looked like porn so I stopped all that shit. Anybody had a dream like that once?

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I sometimes dream about a porn scene but not watching it, it's like I am there, around.

changemylife said:

Decaptare said:

Day 8 - I dreamed about my "darkest" porn fantasize, it was really weird. I remember get hard a lot in the dream, but I realized that looked like porn so I stopped all that shit. Anybody had a dream like that once?

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I sometimes dream about a porn scene but not watching it, it's like I am there, around.

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Yeah! That's what I wanna mean sorry. It was crazy man. Did you dream about that just after reboot or before either?

A few days ago I had something like this. Also, sometimes I have a dream where I am in a porn scene, around, but at the same time I get turned on as if I was the actor and I am not the actor cause I can see him and he is someone else.

Day 9 - today I deleted my snapchat and tumblr account, my two biggest source of porn. I deleted nude images of some girls that I had on my smartphone and it was hard. I think just seeing all this porn stuff was really bad. Today during the sleep I felt my brain thinking in porn A LOT and it was like I was really seeing porn. I think it happened because of the images that I saw before sleeping. Should I reset the counter? Was it a relapse?

Don't be too extreme with this. You looked at some pictures a little bit, to delete them. Now don't look at other pictures and go on with the recovery. I wouldn't reset counters. But it's just me.

changemylife said:

Don't be too extreme with this. You looked at some pictures a little bit, to delete them. Now don't look at other pictures and go on with the recovery. I wouldn't reset counters. But it's just me.

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Thanks for your opinion bro

Decaptare said:

changemylife said:

Don't be too extreme with this. You looked at some pictures a little bit, to delete them. Now don't look at other pictures and go on with the recovery. I wouldn't reset counters. But it's just me.

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Thanks for your opinion bro

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Think about it like this: As long as you don't watch/look at something deliberately, there is no reason to be hard on yourself. Deleting the the pictures was necessary and looking at them a little bit couldn't be avoided. Just don't go looking for stuff yourself. Don't spend more than a couple of seconds looking at something if it happens. The more you do it, the harder the urges build up, like when you are hungry and keep looking at that table with food, from behind the bars. The brain is a slave but our soul doesn't have to be.

Peace (cause without peace there is chaos in the mind)

Yeah. I think there is no reason to reset. It's not enough to worry about it. Since I don't want more and consequently PMO, it is ok.

Day 10 - Everything is ok. I dreamed about porn again, but it is ok, I feel nothing. What is bothering me is some girl friends talking about sex, I think I have to tell them to stop. You guys reply here helps a lot by the way.