Hey guys.
I was on here a couple years ago. It helped. It worked. I went about 60 or 70 days without porn or MB. (This is almost literally 2 years ago from the day) I had started to feel better, but definitely wasn't recovered fully by any means. I have been watching porn and some pretty whacky stuff since I was 13 years old. I am 36 now.. so 23 years of building these neuro-pathways in my brain. I have been battling it now for a few years, knowing that there is a problem, wanting to fix it.. fully understanding how neuro science works, yet having a lot of trouble overcoming all of this. My mind knows what I need to do, but my body and subconscious ends up taking over and justifying why it's ok.
I recently had completed 100 days of no Porn (Started in Nov 2018, and finished in February 2019) . What I found myself doing was that after a week or 2, the urges would build up to watch something.. but I wanted to stick to my 100 days.. so I would go online and search for STORIES rather than video.. Somewhat trying to find a way to cheat a bit. This then became somewhat of a habit. I suppose it's not as bad as watching video, but as soon as the 100 days ended, I watched porn again.. and again, and I fell right back into the same old habit.
So now I have been back to watching porn for the last couple months basically.
I'm not sure exactly what I should do when it comes to MB or sex though. I KNOW that I need to stop watching porn, but I could use some advice ... Should I avoid MB as well, and if so for how long? Or do you guys think that cutting Porn out completely but still MB'ing just using my THOUGHTS is ok? Feeling a bit lost on all of this.
All I know is that I need help...
I know that this has control over me, and therefore I know I need to regain control over this issue.
Can anyone explain to me their experience regarding stopping MB as well as Porn? Do you guys stop both, or do you keep MBing when you need to?
I am back on here after 2 years because I realize I actually need some support... I need to become better. And this time I can't do 60 or 70 days, or a 100 day challenge. I believe that I need to give myself 6-9 months at least and really stick to it..
Thanks in advance to anyone that responds.
I was on here a couple years ago. It helped. It worked. I went about 60 or 70 days without porn or MB. (This is almost literally 2 years ago from the day) I had started to feel better, but definitely wasn't recovered fully by any means. I have been watching porn and some pretty whacky stuff since I was 13 years old. I am 36 now.. so 23 years of building these neuro-pathways in my brain. I have been battling it now for a few years, knowing that there is a problem, wanting to fix it.. fully understanding how neuro science works, yet having a lot of trouble overcoming all of this. My mind knows what I need to do, but my body and subconscious ends up taking over and justifying why it's ok.
I recently had completed 100 days of no Porn (Started in Nov 2018, and finished in February 2019) . What I found myself doing was that after a week or 2, the urges would build up to watch something.. but I wanted to stick to my 100 days.. so I would go online and search for STORIES rather than video.. Somewhat trying to find a way to cheat a bit. This then became somewhat of a habit. I suppose it's not as bad as watching video, but as soon as the 100 days ended, I watched porn again.. and again, and I fell right back into the same old habit.
So now I have been back to watching porn for the last couple months basically.
I'm not sure exactly what I should do when it comes to MB or sex though. I KNOW that I need to stop watching porn, but I could use some advice ... Should I avoid MB as well, and if so for how long? Or do you guys think that cutting Porn out completely but still MB'ing just using my THOUGHTS is ok? Feeling a bit lost on all of this.
All I know is that I need help...
I know that this has control over me, and therefore I know I need to regain control over this issue.
Can anyone explain to me their experience regarding stopping MB as well as Porn? Do you guys stop both, or do you keep MBing when you need to?
I am back on here after 2 years because I realize I actually need some support... I need to become better. And this time I can't do 60 or 70 days, or a 100 day challenge. I believe that I need to give myself 6-9 months at least and really stick to it..
Thanks in advance to anyone that responds.