Berens
Active Member
Hi. I hope you will understand me, i have never talked about it with anyone. I'am 20 years old. I began to MO at 14 and watching P at 15. I was always shy as a kid but now I feel like i would like to grow up and live the life the way i would like to. I dont want to be controlled by my addiction. I decided to stop PMO more than 1 year ago, i noticed that when i PMO i have less energy and feel like isolate from people. The problem is i am relapsing again, again and again and after relapse i tell my self that i will never do it again. I use web filter. My biggest problem are sexual fantasies and impulses i have sometimes. I can just stop doing what i am doing and MO. When read that cold showers help i masturbated under cold shower. I dont have any other addiction and feel like its destroying me. I tried so many times to reboot but i cant do it alone, need your help. I relapse every 3 or 4 days. I see on the street beautiful girls and i would talk to them and meet them, i read that Alan's Roger Currie ebook "Mode one", but i get paralised by fear. I dont have any friendship with girls. My problem is not that i am alone, my problem is that i cant control my life and my urges to PMO.