I was browsing a forum last night, looking for something that I'm not quite comfortable sharing at this part of my reboot, and I saw a reference to PIED, which then led me to "www.yourbrainonporn.com". After watching the 33 minute video on the topic of the adolescent mind and pornography which introduced to me the concept of PIED and explained the science behind it, my world had been changed.
I learned what I had secretly suspected, but never admitted: porn/masturbation was the source of the troubles I was having in the sack. I will detail a frightful experience between a lovely girl and myself around April this year...
I finally met up with a girl I had talked to online over the course of two years. I had had no problems getting off with her through IM and nude photos (which, as some of you will know from porn, becomes increasingly depraved as "normal" just doesn't cut it anymore) but when it got down to it the second time we met, in her house, I was only able to muster up this weird half-hard mini-boner. It was very embarrassing.
I have a girlfriend now but ever since then I have been scared to interact sexually using my penis. It's not that I don't want to; I'm scared I won't be able to get it up. I'm not sure how long I can hold off before giving her some sort of explanation.
On the topic of pornography, I started around 12. From that young age I worked my way through normal porn with young and attractive women, on to anal, DP, BBW, granny, BDSM; any straight category you name, I've tried it. But, a few years later (15-16), I developed a taste for tranny porn. I have watched countless shemale video and gone through almost all the categories as I did straight porn. Alas, even the allure of this wore off and I was on the hunt for something even more shocking. Recently, I have been watching gay porn, namely significantly older men with younger partners.
I only detail this to show the full extent of my addiction, and to lay everything on the table from Post 1. I truly hope to get better. When I read attraction to real members of the opposite sex returns, I haven't thought of anything bar my girlfriend since.
I'm starting with a goal of 30 days, and hope to continue that to 90 consecutive days PMO free. I would be grateful should someone volunteer to be my accountability partner as I am fully serious about this venture.
I learned what I had secretly suspected, but never admitted: porn/masturbation was the source of the troubles I was having in the sack. I will detail a frightful experience between a lovely girl and myself around April this year...
I finally met up with a girl I had talked to online over the course of two years. I had had no problems getting off with her through IM and nude photos (which, as some of you will know from porn, becomes increasingly depraved as "normal" just doesn't cut it anymore) but when it got down to it the second time we met, in her house, I was only able to muster up this weird half-hard mini-boner. It was very embarrassing.
I have a girlfriend now but ever since then I have been scared to interact sexually using my penis. It's not that I don't want to; I'm scared I won't be able to get it up. I'm not sure how long I can hold off before giving her some sort of explanation.
On the topic of pornography, I started around 12. From that young age I worked my way through normal porn with young and attractive women, on to anal, DP, BBW, granny, BDSM; any straight category you name, I've tried it. But, a few years later (15-16), I developed a taste for tranny porn. I have watched countless shemale video and gone through almost all the categories as I did straight porn. Alas, even the allure of this wore off and I was on the hunt for something even more shocking. Recently, I have been watching gay porn, namely significantly older men with younger partners.
I only detail this to show the full extent of my addiction, and to lay everything on the table from Post 1. I truly hope to get better. When I read attraction to real members of the opposite sex returns, I haven't thought of anything bar my girlfriend since.
I'm starting with a goal of 30 days, and hope to continue that to 90 consecutive days PMO free. I would be grateful should someone volunteer to be my accountability partner as I am fully serious about this venture.