eggs_over_rice
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So I came here a few months ago. I realized I had a problem. It took a while because for most of my life, porn = sex. I never had much of the real thing, which is another discussion. But a few months ago I met a girl, we hooked up. And I finally realized that porn is not sex. The most profound thing I discovered was that porn can ruin real sex, which was contrary to what I though.
Anyway, after that night. I decided that porn had ruined my perception of real intimacy, and also decided that I would start to work towards a life free from the desire to use porn as a substitute for real sex.
I went almost 50 days without porn/fapping.
It was easy, I had no desire to watch porn. I still wanted to masturbate but everything I had read said to cut out masturbation for a time period as well. Then I relapsed. About 3 weeks ago. Then I stopped. Then I relapsed this week. A lot. On both last week and this week there were two things in common: I didn't know why anymore; like what the heck am I doing this for? So I thought fuck it why not. Jerking off after almost two months felt great. And I didn't need porn to help me finish, but the point is that I wanted to watch porn as well. And that after a while I could no longer resist the urge to PMO.
So I'm starting this journal, I think its a good way to keep track of my thoughts. Feel free to comment/share your own experiences.
Anyway, after that night. I decided that porn had ruined my perception of real intimacy, and also decided that I would start to work towards a life free from the desire to use porn as a substitute for real sex.
I went almost 50 days without porn/fapping.
It was easy, I had no desire to watch porn. I still wanted to masturbate but everything I had read said to cut out masturbation for a time period as well. Then I relapsed. About 3 weeks ago. Then I stopped. Then I relapsed this week. A lot. On both last week and this week there were two things in common: I didn't know why anymore; like what the heck am I doing this for? So I thought fuck it why not. Jerking off after almost two months felt great. And I didn't need porn to help me finish, but the point is that I wanted to watch porn as well. And that after a while I could no longer resist the urge to PMO.
So I'm starting this journal, I think its a good way to keep track of my thoughts. Feel free to comment/share your own experiences.