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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #25 on: July 04, 2017, 03:09:54 PM »
Day 26
I have been absent for a while because I studied very hard for my exams, but now fortunately they're over. My days without P are going on, and not PMO now just feel so much natural to me. I had some flashbacks during the past days but they're decreasing dramatically during those days.

I am near my longest streak of 38 days

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« Reply #26 on: July 07, 2017, 01:46:16 PM »
Day 29
It has been a bit more challenging during these day resisting. Maybe it's because I'm less busy with work and there is more free time, but I managed everything well. Let's continue this way.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #27 on: July 26, 2017, 11:40:57 AM »
Here I am 19 days after the last post. First of all I feel I have to explain the reason for my absence. Since the 7th of July, the date of my last post, a few things have happened. As I said earlier since I stopped studying it has become more difficult to control, I stress immediately and it's difficult. Unfortunately these difficulties have taken over, right after an exact month from the beginning of my reboot, July 9th. I learned from this situation how to manage for the future, to rewiring for new scenarios.

So I resisted three miserable days until July 12th when I relapsed again. I tried to learn something from here too, I realized that couldn't resume from where I left, but I needed to resume that process of awareness of the problem and motivation that helped me so much at the beginning. And so I tried again.

All this until July 26, two weeks away. Today my recent relapse. What didn't work? It's that I promised to deal with the problem, to take good old habits but once for one reason, once for another, I always postponed this commitment.

Now I have decided to give it the highest priority, if I do not go ahead in this project, I can not deal well with others.

So I get back to restarting, from my first long reboot of 9th June I've been 1 month and a half and I saw p only 3 times, not bad after all. Now I do not want to count days, no more goals, it must be a permanent change. For me. For my family. For everything.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #28 on: July 26, 2017, 11:42:22 AM »
I know that, when you are busy, things keep kind of easy. If you have lots of work to do, it is so hard to relapse. For me, it is just hard if I have a lot to do when sitting on a table, try to study because that is when my thoughts start to wander around. Physcal work is great in order to not do stupid things or even think about those.

Being busy really helps, I hope I'll manage well future hints with more courage.

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« Reply #29 on: July 28, 2017, 10:27:29 AM »
Guys I'll be honest, even just writing this post makes me shame. It makes me feel like I've been an eternal failure even though I know it's not like that, and maybe this is one of the forum's functions, to help me not want to feel like this anymore. Unfortunately, I did not manage to resist even one day yesterday and I have fallen back. Now with what courage should I try again? With the fact that there is still time and hope that I can really be free, with the fact that every time I fall I can learn something new.
This time I think I'm at a turning point, I finally rationalized a trick my mind uses: whenever there is a situation that usually brings me to P I have a ready answer, but when I don't have it because it is a new situation, instead of looking at it at the moment, I use the lack of it as an excuse to get around the system.
But now things will change, I no longer have opportunities after this, now or never.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #30 on: July 29, 2017, 08:07:15 AM »
Day 1.

A normal day, few flashbacks, it's only the first little step to a better future.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #31 on: July 30, 2017, 08:19:51 AM »
Day 2.

Another pretty good day. I am really determined to make this change permanent once and for all.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #32 on: July 31, 2017, 10:47:22 AM »
Day 3
I kept my self busy, during late night I had an occasional tought to PMO but I managed it good and I am happy for this.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #33 on: August 01, 2017, 07:09:48 AM »
Day 4
Everything ok, a nice productive day. No particular urges.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #34 on: August 02, 2017, 01:49:41 PM »
Today I relapsed again, it's really strange how one that has reached 38 days without P now has difficulty to reach a week...

I wondered what went wrong and I realized that despite being more active on the forum and being more consciuous about my problem, the rational part of my brain lost against the excuses my mind creates in order to justify porn. Maybe I can fix that reinforcing my rational self by reading new and old stuff about this problem everyday.

I will never give up!

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« Reply #35 on: August 02, 2017, 04:53:35 PM »
You have to try thinking about porn as little interesting! It's simply rubbish!!
When you wish to watch porn, try to thinking that a real girl is better then the best porn movie!
Let that porn loss all his appeal.
My last masturbation with porn is on 11 July 2017. Since then, porn came out of my life, as M.
My only orgasms are with my gf.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #36 on: August 04, 2017, 11:20:21 AM »
Day 1

Another day one, another try, but maybe the last ;)

@ Hope: I agree with you, it's a violent and degrading world.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #37 on: August 05, 2017, 09:22:09 AM »
Day 2

Everything ok, my mood is better, I feel more confident.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #38 on: August 06, 2017, 04:40:43 AM »
Day 3

So everything went ok, in the evening my mind tried to convince me saying "concede yourself another PMO, you'll start on Monday, it will begin your reboot on Monday, it's a better day to begin things", but I resisted. Indeed I kept calm and realized that it's the same thing I said to myself other times, so if I would concede to it never would change.

Me 1 - Porn 0.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #39 on: August 08, 2017, 06:24:10 AM »
Yesterday I relapsed again, maybe it's the 1000th time that this happens but I won't give up, never.

This time I noticed that I need to learn new practices to strengthen my emotional power.

Resetting the counter. I will also write down all the cues that will manifest along the day.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #40 on: August 09, 2017, 05:31:05 AM »
Day 1

A calm and good day, no particular problems.

Cues faced: 2
1) Being stressed
2) Coming back home after hanging out with friends

Both managed well.


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« Reply #41 on: August 10, 2017, 05:32:04 AM »
Day 2

Pretty good day, relaxing but also productive.

Cues faced: 1.

1) Being stressed.

Managed well.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #42 on: August 12, 2017, 09:45:06 AM »
Day 4

Everything ok, had some thoughts about P but I managed everything well and I'm really happy because of it.

Cues faced: 2

1) Being stressed

2) Being bored

Manged both well.

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #43 on: August 13, 2017, 10:15:32 AM »
Day 5

Everything ok, I am very happy that I am choosing every time the right path. This motivates me to do that again and again.

Cues faced: 0

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« Reply #44 on: August 14, 2017, 05:20:31 AM »
Day 6

A day like another, everything ok.

Cues faced: 2

1) After Sunday's lunch.

2) Being stressed.

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« Reply #45 on: August 15, 2017, 07:10:45 AM »
Day 7

A good productive day, everything is ok.

Cues faced: 3.

1) Being home alone.

2) Taking a shower.

3) Preparing to go out with friends.

All cues managed well.

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« Reply #46 on: August 15, 2017, 07:28:53 AM »
First week almost done! You still experiencing the chaser effect? That bastard got me off-guard 2 times before.

What is your max days of no-PMO?

Anyways, go get 'em :))




"I cried because I had no shoes, until I met a man who had no feet"

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Re: Just changing a bad habit
« Reply #47 on: August 16, 2017, 05:28:51 AM »
Day 8

A busy day. Everything ok. I am in hard mode since day 1 but it's not voluntary, it's because of external situations  ;D

Cues faced: 1

1) Guest at home

Managed well

First week almost done! You still experiencing the chaser effect? That bastard got me off-guard 2 times before.

What is your max days of no-PMO?

Anyways, go get 'em :))

Hi Dico, glad to see you here in my jorunal. Although I am in hard mode for the first time (as I wrote before it's not voluntary and it won't last because not having PIED I prefer soft mode) it seems like I don't experience it anymore, it's only a thought that comes and goes quickly.

My max days of no P (but with MO using fantasies about real women I know) is 38 days.

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« Reply #48 on: August 17, 2017, 05:11:08 AM »
Day 9

A super busy and productive day.

Cues faced: 0.

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« Reply #49 on: August 18, 2017, 06:07:17 AM »
Day 10

Everything ok as usual, not particular urges, turned on soft mode as planned.

Cues faced: 1

1) Being stressed

Managed well.