Dico888
Active Member
Hey guys (and girls),
First of all, you have no idea how happy I am to find this website (and Yourbrainrebalanced). When I read some stories and listened to Gabe's video's, I even got emotional. Finally, finally some answers!
I found Gabe etc about 5 hours ago, have been watching all his video's and reading a lot of succes stories etc since then. Now I thought it was my time to make a journal. Also because it's good to shout it out for once, not keeping everything to myself.
Apparently, I have PI-ED for over 8 years or so I think. First time I can remember was when I was 20, (28 now), giving oral to my then-gf, being very hard, but when the deed comes, going flaccid in 15 seconds, maybe faster :-[
I kinda avoided sex since then, did some one-night stances, but always made sure I was a bit intoxicated. I did this so if my Willy did refuse, which is kinda almost did, I could blame the alcohol.
Everytime after I shared a bed with a girl, the next day I would be googling 24/7 about the problem. It was horrible. I thought I had a full-on ED and even a few times I thought that maybe I wasn't interested in girls. These thoughts really wrecked my world. Because of this, depressions, anxiety.. you know the things.
Recently I have a new neighbor, a really nice and funny girl who is into me, and I am into her, but I always keep her at an arms-distance, and also afraid to tell her my problem. We kissed a few times, watched movies, but I always end up leaving or sending her away before the sex. To the point where I'm thinking she starts to like me less and less, which I don't blame her ofcourse.
We planned a nice evening tonight, but I was afraid to go to her house, because of my fear of staying flaccid, this time I had enough. I started googling again for ED's etc (I know the first 2 pages of Google out of the top of my head), and suddenly I saw something with Dangers of Porn, and it struck me. Then I found YourBrainRebalanced and RebootNation and every word Gabe said, I was like "YES!" "YES!", "those are my symptoms spot on!"
And now I'm typing this, starting my Rebooting today. Last time I masturbated was this evening, just before I googled the ED problems.
I think I'll be adding days to my journal every 2-3 days, unless I experienced something that is important for me in the future, or for other people.
P.S. Gabe, I owe you the world , and haven't even started yet.
First of all, you have no idea how happy I am to find this website (and Yourbrainrebalanced). When I read some stories and listened to Gabe's video's, I even got emotional. Finally, finally some answers!
I found Gabe etc about 5 hours ago, have been watching all his video's and reading a lot of succes stories etc since then. Now I thought it was my time to make a journal. Also because it's good to shout it out for once, not keeping everything to myself.
Apparently, I have PI-ED for over 8 years or so I think. First time I can remember was when I was 20, (28 now), giving oral to my then-gf, being very hard, but when the deed comes, going flaccid in 15 seconds, maybe faster :-[
I kinda avoided sex since then, did some one-night stances, but always made sure I was a bit intoxicated. I did this so if my Willy did refuse, which is kinda almost did, I could blame the alcohol.
Everytime after I shared a bed with a girl, the next day I would be googling 24/7 about the problem. It was horrible. I thought I had a full-on ED and even a few times I thought that maybe I wasn't interested in girls. These thoughts really wrecked my world. Because of this, depressions, anxiety.. you know the things.
Recently I have a new neighbor, a really nice and funny girl who is into me, and I am into her, but I always keep her at an arms-distance, and also afraid to tell her my problem. We kissed a few times, watched movies, but I always end up leaving or sending her away before the sex. To the point where I'm thinking she starts to like me less and less, which I don't blame her ofcourse.
We planned a nice evening tonight, but I was afraid to go to her house, because of my fear of staying flaccid, this time I had enough. I started googling again for ED's etc (I know the first 2 pages of Google out of the top of my head), and suddenly I saw something with Dangers of Porn, and it struck me. Then I found YourBrainRebalanced and RebootNation and every word Gabe said, I was like "YES!" "YES!", "those are my symptoms spot on!"
And now I'm typing this, starting my Rebooting today. Last time I masturbated was this evening, just before I googled the ED problems.
I think I'll be adding days to my journal every 2-3 days, unless I experienced something that is important for me in the future, or for other people.
P.S. Gabe, I owe you the world , and haven't even started yet.