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Hi, so this is the first time being on this site.  I'll give you my back story.  I'm 35 years old and have been addicted to porn since I was 21.  I got married at 26 and just got divorced a few months ago.  For the majority of our marriage I had difficulty getting an erection due to looking at porn and masturbating several times a day.  I had a two stints of unemployment so during that time I was probably masturbating 5-6 times a day.  Our marriage ended when I found out she was cheating on me.  While I don't blame my porn addiction for my marriage failing I do think it played a factor since our sex life was awful.  I tried a few times over the summer to quit and always relapsed after 1 or 2 weeks.  The last time I looked at porn or masturbated was September 3rd.  I am determined to never look again and I feel strong about it.  What pushed me to this site though was that I just started a relationship with a girl I'm crazy about and two hours ago we went to have sex for the first and .......well I think you can guess what happened or actually didn't happen.  I could barely get an erection and we couldn't have sex.  I feel sick right now and am having anxiety attacks.  I AM NOT GOING TO RELAPSE but I'm terrified now as our relationship is new and I don't want to tell her we can't have sex for 2-3 months.  I went to see a doctor a few months ago about the ED and was given Viagra but didn't take it before this as it kind of just happened.  After reading a lot of stories on Your Brain on Porn and this site I understand it's gonna take time but I'm just really worried as I want to have sex with her but I just don't have faith an erection will happen.  As much as I'm crazy about her I feel maybe I shouldn't have started dating until my reboot was further along.  Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

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