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The YourBrain Rebalanced Radio Show - Episode 12 is up and running!

Hey everyone! The title says it all. Apeman, Jeff and I (members of another porn addiction website) have decided to do a 8 part radio show that tackles issues on pornography addiction, PIED, rebooting, rewiring and just life as a pornography addict. The show is recorded on Skype (hopefully weekly, but it will probably be slightly more irregular than that) and we will hopefully be having special guests for each episode. As of right now, the show is audio only. It's available for streaming and download!

The show's format is casual - we're really not too concerned if we get off topic and chat about other things that aren't apart of each episode "topic". The goal of this show is to provide content where pornography addicts interact and communicate with each other, hopefully humanizing the condition a little bit more. While this forum is a fantastic resource, most of us only communicate through typing, which can make our interactions impersonal and distant. This show hopes to make this condition a little more human for everybody.

As of right now, we are shooting for 8 episodes and we will gauge the feedback after that to see if it's helpful and if we should keep going. The topics for all the episodes aren't worked out yet so definitely post and talk about topics you'd like to hear about. PLEASE PLEASE. And also if you'd like to be on the show freakin' let me know!!

SEASON 1


EPISODE 1-9

https://soundcloud.com/yourbrainrebalancedshow

Season 1 of the YBR show was filled with a lot of great moments. Interviews with Gabe Deem, Noah Church, and Gary Wilson are featured in the following episodes. We cover a range of topics, stemming from "Starting the Reboot" to "Porn Addiction and Modern Science and Research". Enjoy friends! :D

SEASON 2

EPISODE 10

Season 2 is back of the YourBrainRebalanced Show! At least, that's what we will call our hiatus. ;) Only Daniel (Jeff) and Charlie (fugu) were available for this short introductory episode - BUT DON'T FEAR. Jack (Apeman) will be back with us shortly, and guests will be a part of future shows. We simply talked about what we've been doing the last few months and answered a few old questions.

https://soundcloud.com/yourbrainrebalancedshow/season-2-episode-1-yourbrainrebalanced-radio-show



EPISODE 11

Season 2, episode 2 of the YBR show features Jack (Apeman), Noah Church (Spangler), and Charlie Marcotte (fugu) in a general discussion about pornography addiction and challenges we have individually faced during the course of rebooting. The topics were wide ranging, but the podcast is filled with a lot of great conversation. Check out this fantastically funny and informational presentation (almost stand up routine) Noah did on porn addiction and pornography induced ED back in November: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXtEcQGLWW8

https://soundcloud.com/yourbrainrebalancedshow/the-yourbrainrebalanced-radioshow-season-2-episode-2-w-noah-church-and-jack



EPISODE 12

This episode of the YBR show discusses all of the important, helpful activities one can do during a reboot that'll improve your quality of life. Daniel Simmons has returned from his meditation sabbatical (!!!) to give us first hand knowledge and experience about the boons of meditating. Noah Church and Charlie Marcotte are just ignorant. ;) ;) ;)

Towards the end of the episode we answered a few fans questions that were particularly engaging...shout out to OSS from RebootNation for asking great questions and listening to us for a long time. :)

https://soundcloud.com/yourbrainrebalancedshow/the-yourbrainrebalanced-radioshow-episode-healthy-activities-to-include-in-rebooting-and-life



EPISODE 13

In this episode of the YBR show, Gabe Deem and Gary Wilson join Charlie "Fugu" Marcotte and Noah "Spangler" Church to discuss common pornography myths and misconceptions. After the topic discussion, the cast chatted about a variety of pornography addiction and pornography induced sexual dysfunction topics. It was a really good discussion and we always love having those two on the show. The SoundCloud file will be up soon with streaming and download access - but, for now, here is the YouTube video. With our talking heads.  8) Enjoy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6iVZvFYqjc

Give us feedback on the show, let us know what topics you want talked about and if you are interested in being on the show!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show!
« Reply #1 on: May 29, 2014, 09:51:34 AM »
Next episode of the show is going to feature gameover, a member of the YBR. The topic is relapses.

Stay tuned!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show!
« Reply #2 on: June 09, 2014, 09:25:41 AM »
Two more episodes have been posted! One episode was with popular YBR member gameover, and the other episode was with the eloquent, well-spoken, and zesty Jedimindtricks.

If you have comments on the show, an idea for a topic, or want to be a guest, don't hesitate to ask!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - Next episode w/ Gabe Deem
« Reply #3 on: June 12, 2014, 09:09:46 AM »
Happy to say that Gabe will be joining us for the next episode of the YBR show. It'll probably come out sometime next week, so stay tuned!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - Next episode w/ Gabe Deem
« Reply #4 on: June 12, 2014, 01:49:11 PM »
It's so funny hearing voices to put to the user names!  I had no idea Gameover was from down under!!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - Next episode w/ Gabe Deem
« Reply #5 on: June 13, 2014, 10:59:38 AM »
It's so funny hearing voices to put to the user names!  I had no idea Gameover was from down under!!

Yeah it is pretty funny, particularly after you've been reading about these people's lives and putting faces and voices to the story :)
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Hey all! Episode 4 is now live! Gabe Deem was kind enough to drop by. The usual cast wasn't able to be apart of it this week, but we still had a great talk. Hope you guys enjoy!
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Hey friends! Episode 5 - Rebooting with a partner is now live! My very special lady friend dropped by to talk about all things related to rebooting and recovering together. It was a great talk!

Hope you enjoy!
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Sweet, can't wait to listen to this one. I've listened to all of them and they've all been incredibly helpful.

Really appreciate it

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Sweet, can't wait to listen to this one. I've listened to all of them and they've all been incredibly helpful.

Really appreciate it

Great to hear man! It was a fun one to record. :)

Glad you are liking the show!
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Great talk!!  I LOL'd when "meeg" was saying she was receiving too much info about your penis!!  I can sooooo relate ;)
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Great talk!!  I LOL'd when "meeg" was saying she was receiving too much info about your penis!!  I can sooooo relate ;)

LOL!!! I'll have to show her your comment, she'll definitely get a kick out of it.  ;D
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Great talk!!  I LOL'd when "meeg" was saying she was receiving too much info about your penis!!  I can sooooo relate ;)

LOL!!! I'll have to show her your comment, she'll definitely get a kick out of it.  ;D

Hehe!  I remember saying to my husband "man all we talk about is your dick...I am so sick of your dick, let's just rip it off" LOL!!  obviously I was frustrated at the time  ;D
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Next episode is coming in a few days with special guest Spangler! He wrote a great book on PMO addiction is putting out some GREAT content on YouTube on the subject.

Any suggestions for topics? Any questions for Spangler or the rest of the crew?

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Has any of the crew, Spangler included ever dealt with derealization/depersonalization (some say it's simply heavy brain fog) and how it effects them and their rebooting? I realise it's a broad question but curious if anyone has anything to share about it and over coming it while rebooting.

Cheers
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Hey everyone! The new episode with author of "Wack: Addicted to Internet Porn" Noah Church is live! This was a great episode and Noah has some really great insight. His YouTube channel is top notch. Check it out!

As usual, post in questions or comments you want answered for future episodes.

Has any of the crew, Spangler included ever dealt with derealization/depersonalization (some say it's simply heavy brain fog) and how it effects them and their rebooting? I realise it's a broad question but curious if anyone has anything to share about it and over coming it while rebooting.

Cheers

CRAP, we didn't see this question when we were doing the show. I'll ask Spangler about it and he'll get back to you on this thread!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - New episode w/ Noah Church live!
« Reply #16 on: July 11, 2014, 02:01:09 AM »
Great, thanks!

I had an intense moment (I think it was towards the end of the show) when you guys were talking about how real life is only about 5% sex. Struck me hard to realise I base almost everything I do in day to day life on sex and sexual interaction.
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - New episode w/ Noah Church live!
« Reply #17 on: July 11, 2014, 04:48:38 PM »
Great, thanks!

I had an intense moment (I think it was towards the end of the show) when you guys were talking about how real life is only about 5% sex. Struck me hard to realise I base almost everything I do in day to day life on sex and sexual interaction.

Yeah I still suffer sometimes from that 'sex-centric' thinking. Fortunately, being aware of it is crazy helpful and big win in itself.

I sent Spangler a message with your question, let's see what he says!
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - New episode w/ Noah Church live!
« Reply #18 on: July 13, 2014, 02:52:46 PM »
By depersonalization, you mean the feeling of being outside of yourself or being disengaged with reality? Looking back, yes I have had many experiences like this, but they were never severe or long-lasting enough for me to seek help with them. I haven't felt this way in awhile, and that may very well be related to no PMO. Do you find that depersonalization causes you to give into urges more easily?
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - New episode w/ Noah Church live!
« Reply #19 on: July 14, 2014, 02:21:25 AM »
It kicked in after my first panic attack in January when I reached about 25 days no arousal streak. I stayed porn free for a further 100 days and I still had it but it did get dramatically better. Initially it was like I was dreaming 24/7 for weeks, I thought everything around me was fake. Best way I can describe it is like I'm "stuck behind my eyes" or in a dream-like state. Conciousness feels wobbly and it's like I can't focus on stuff that I look at. I'm reasonably confident it's anxiety related. I've never really felt outside of myself, but definitely disengaged with reality

Mainly just curious if any long term rebooters have experienced it.

Hmm... I don't believe it has effected my urge or relapse rate directly, it adds to the depression and anxiety but I have only relapsed due to feeling down very few times anyway.

Thanks for the response
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - New episode w/ Noah Church live!
« Reply #20 on: July 14, 2014, 03:19:52 AM »
You're the first I've spoken with to describe those exact experiences, but the mental/emotional state of many rebooters goes through a huge flux as withdrawals kick in and the brain strives to find a new balance. If this journey gave you a panic attack, I have no doubt that it may bring about other such severe symptoms such as depersonalization. It can take many months without porn to adjust to your new reality, but after long enough all withdrawal symptoms should resolve. If it doesn't, then it may have another cause, and I'd recommend seeing a professional.

After your 100 days you went back to porn? How did that affect the depersonalization?
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - New episode w/ Noah Church live!
« Reply #21 on: July 14, 2014, 04:22:45 AM »
There were definitely other factors involved but they had never really affected me due to the emotional numbing porn caused. But once that anxiety hit all those previous factors started to flood in emotionally also. It was the first time ever achieving 25 days no arousal. Thanks for the encouraging words.

Yeah I did go back to porn so, I'll try lay this out for you...

Day 26, (no arousal) - Panic attack
Day 42, first MO, no porn (didn't negatively impact anxiety or DP, it just stalled progress)
Days 42 - 120, I was Ming about 3x per month, peeked on google images maybe 2 or 3 times (nothing major, bikini girls)
Day 120 (early April), Binged on tube sites for a few days

Days 26 to about 50. I was non functional, shaking and crying with anxiety for most of my waking hours, heavy DP. I still get anxiety over nothing and I'm really really sensitive to things like CSI seeing a dead bodies on tv etc. But I'm now mostly functional and the DP is 60% improved, anxiety is improved.

So as for your question lol.... Going back to porn stalled the progress I had made on the depersonalization as well as my anxiety progress. Coincidently hit 26 days no porn, 5 days no MO today and my anxiety has definitely increased the past few days. DP acutely increases if I get into a panic cycle.

Sorry for these walls of texts lol but there are so many variables I feel it's a bit easier to understand with more info
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - THE BOYS ARE BACK IN TOWN. Ep. 7.
« Reply #22 on: August 10, 2014, 02:32:46 PM »
HEYO! After a little bit of a hiatus, the boys are back in town and making some episodes again. Episode 7 is live and rolling. We talk about a slew of new pornography studies that recently came out and their relevance. We also just chat about porn addiction in general, humorous stories, and other random stuff during the second half of the episode. Lesssssssss gooooooo
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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - THE BOYS ARE BACK IN TOWN. Ep. 7.
« Reply #23 on: August 11, 2014, 03:59:05 AM »
This episode was great, had me laughing a lot  :D

"We needed to fuck long before we needed to do calculus" hahaha

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Re: The YourBrainRebalanced Radio Show - THE BOYS ARE BACK IN TOWN. Ep. 7.
« Reply #24 on: August 11, 2014, 11:44:10 AM »
This episode was great, had me laughing a lot  :D

"We needed to fuck long before we needed to do calculus" hahaha

Hahahaha. That killed me, too. :D Glad you liked the episode!
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