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Totte
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Hi all!
I am a 52-year-old man on my way to 53 I am married to my love ?P?, now for 23 years and still counting. I have a great work that I love, good work friends so should live my life fully, but I don?t something is lacing. For a long time, I thought my problem started whit my performance problem in the bedroom. This performance problem started about few to sex years ago, I have always made my wife happy in bed, even when my problem started I found other solutions to get it to work. We have always had a good relationship in and out of bed. I now know this problem started long before this period.
My porn us started wherry young, it started when I found a porn-magazine in my brother?s wardrobe. Why was I in my brother?s wardrobe, it was pretty innocent just hanging clothes that my mother asked me to do. This was the start of using porn about 13 to 14 years of age. This magazine I found has now gone to using internet porn, true videos and then in to internet porn. The use of internet porn has then gone true starting to want to explore alternative like transsexual, BDSM and so on. After a life time with having porn at my side it escalated when our boy came in to our life, basically all activity stopped because he was and still are a difficult child (will not get in to that, it has nothing to do with my porn addiction). I used porn more and more because we didn?t have a chance to have sex. Now many years later I am here to get better.
When I saw the signs that I got iterated on my wife for no good reason I did understand there must be something wrong, I still love her, but I can?t get turn on any more. Then I contacted the healthcare and the gave me Sildenafil well it helped little, but I fast understand that problem is else ware. Finding out about PED I know now I am a porn addict.
My name is ?T? and I am an internet porn addict and I want to get better.
A quote that I live and think about sometime.
?Not everything that counts can be counted,
and not everything that can be counted counts.?
Using DayCount
I will try to answer this 2-3 times a week.
Did I use porn today?
What were my triggers?
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
What am I grateful for today?
Sorry for my bad English its not my nativ?
Good links
https://www.jordangrayconsulting.com/2015/07/how-to-overcome-performance-anxiety/
Quotes:
We shall go on to the end, we shall fight in France,
We shall fight on the seas and oceans,
We shall fight with growing confidence and growing strength in the air, we shall defend our Island, whatever the cost may be,
We shall fight on the beaches,
We shall fight on the landing grounds,
We shall fight in the fields and in the streets,
We shall fight in the hills;
We shall never surrender, Winston Churchill
I am a 52-year-old man on my way to 53 I am married to my love ?P?, now for 23 years and still counting. I have a great work that I love, good work friends so should live my life fully, but I don?t something is lacing. For a long time, I thought my problem started whit my performance problem in the bedroom. This performance problem started about few to sex years ago, I have always made my wife happy in bed, even when my problem started I found other solutions to get it to work. We have always had a good relationship in and out of bed. I now know this problem started long before this period.
My porn us started wherry young, it started when I found a porn-magazine in my brother?s wardrobe. Why was I in my brother?s wardrobe, it was pretty innocent just hanging clothes that my mother asked me to do. This was the start of using porn about 13 to 14 years of age. This magazine I found has now gone to using internet porn, true videos and then in to internet porn. The use of internet porn has then gone true starting to want to explore alternative like transsexual, BDSM and so on. After a life time with having porn at my side it escalated when our boy came in to our life, basically all activity stopped because he was and still are a difficult child (will not get in to that, it has nothing to do with my porn addiction). I used porn more and more because we didn?t have a chance to have sex. Now many years later I am here to get better.
When I saw the signs that I got iterated on my wife for no good reason I did understand there must be something wrong, I still love her, but I can?t get turn on any more. Then I contacted the healthcare and the gave me Sildenafil well it helped little, but I fast understand that problem is else ware. Finding out about PED I know now I am a porn addict.
My name is ?T? and I am an internet porn addict and I want to get better.
A quote that I live and think about sometime.
?Not everything that counts can be counted,
and not everything that can be counted counts.?
Using DayCount
I will try to answer this 2-3 times a week.
Did I use porn today?
What were my triggers?
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
What am I grateful for today?
Sorry for my bad English its not my nativ?
Good links
https://www.jordangrayconsulting.com/2015/07/how-to-overcome-performance-anxiety/
Quotes:
We shall go on to the end, we shall fight in France,
We shall fight on the seas and oceans,
We shall fight with growing confidence and growing strength in the air, we shall defend our Island, whatever the cost may be,
We shall fight on the beaches,
We shall fight on the landing grounds,
We shall fight in the fields and in the streets,
We shall fight in the hills;
We shall never surrender, Winston Churchill