Pull Me Back

I see porn addiction is a war between two parts of my brain: The logical, moral side and the emotional, depraved side. I do not want to look at porn. I don't want to masturbate to it. Hell, after over 5 years, I've come to view it as downright evil. But once the cravings start, all of these principles go out the window. Like the siren's song, I abandon all reason and crash my boat into the rocks. Depending on how far I am into a reboot, sometimes I can resist. Sometimes I cannot resist, but conscientiously object through the entire ordeal. Other times I shrug my shoulders and say, "Might as well enjoy this if it's going to happen." The more you do it in a short time, the harder it is to get back on the wagon. Is there a technique anyone here uses to overcome the cravings? A thought or an emotion that helps pull you out of your urge and get your head back on straight so you can fight back?

I haven't come very far in my recovery, but I have found some things that do help me. One is to educate yourself about the pornography business. You want to do this in a smart way however. No documentaries or images of any kind should be allowed in order to avoid triggers. I recommend The Porn Myth by Matt Fradd as a good starting point. It is absolutely insane what we are allowing to happen to women across the world in the name of porn. The more you find out the more you will be repulsed and finally your conscience will begin to recover. I find it helps to realize that the issue is BIGGER THAN YOU. This is actually something I tell myself when I feel the urge. There are things that women undergo in porn that we never hear about because the industry is so good at hiding them. Anal tears, rape, drugging, physical abuse, etc. One that has become so commonplace now that we rarely question it is the practice of gagging. No woman in her right mind wants to do this. These are all things they've been "groomed" to do through years of sexual abuse, often since their childhood, until they can't see what is harmful and what is not anymore. And gagging happens in practically every boy-girl video. A dozen more awful things can be mentioned, but I recommend the book like I said. So a good way to handle cravings is to realize that people lives could literally be at stake because we are fueling an industry that exploits women in the worst possible way. Get out of your own head and into reality, to put it succinctly.

Yes, the first step is to educate yourself about the harms that internet pornography is causing to your brain, to your relationships, and to the society. I would suggest going to the site FIGHT THE NEW DRUG. there are many expert interviews and articles that will make you realise that porn is a drug even more harmful than cocaine or LSD. I will also advice reading the chapter 4 of the book 'The Brain that changes itself by Norman doidge as it explains the scientific basis of neuroplasticity behind porn addiction . Once you equip yourself with all this knowledge about the harms of porn you'll be motivated to make a concrete step toward your recovery, and that is where the app FORTIFY will help you. This app is helping me overcome my porn addiction. It's really very good. Do give it a try. Finally, don't do it alone. Connect with your loved ones or others like you on Fortify and you'll see how much great potential you have in yourself. We are always with you. All the Best.